Me this week

Me this week🔪🔪🔪. Wow what a challenging couple of days this has been. It’s like the bad day that keeps going. A ‘dark cloud over the head at all times’ kind of situation. Just one of those weeks where I’m like man, I still have so much to learn in this life. Which can feel defeating and discouraging but also humbling. We’re never done, really but sometimes it’s more apparent than others and it can feel daunting and overwhelming. But it won’t last forever and I’m really working on ALLOWING myself to feel, and taking time to acknowledge those feelings so they can pass. I’m a bottle it all up and act like everything’s fine to those around me but torture myself obsessively thinking about it every second of the day until I am so tired I can’t do anything but numb out and go to sleep, kind of person—so it’s really important for me to make myself feel it no matter how uncomfortable it is. I’m continuously learning to be okay with the discomfort of it, as my feelings still feel like intrusive little strangers but each time is a little less uncomfortable... a little less big and scary and unfamiliar. Which allows me to be okay with them instead of panicking and shoving them down and away. It’s been a slow process but it’s progress. Looking forward to all the self care this weekend—lots of rest and nourishing food, time outside, movement, breathing, good books, cooking, meditating, crying...whatever it takes. Looking forward to a new week🙏